It is very arrogant of me to write an explanation of my story, and maybe a little condescending also…the mantra “you’re not Stephen King,” comes to mind. But I just wanted to write this as sometimes, when I give this story to people to read, there is some confusion about what Lara, Abiel and Midgard are, and represent.
I promise I’ll make it brief. Sorry if this is unnecessary.
I am not a qualified expert in the Hebrew language, so while I have done my research and checked it repeatedly, there may be some inaccuracies in my analysis of ‘Jehovah.’ The crux of this story is in the Hebrew word, ‘Jehovah.’ One of the believed roots of this term is “Je” and “Hovah.” The word ‘Jehovah’ has been a source of debate for centuries, over its pronunciation, legitimacy, etc. When I researched this, I found that in some spellings of the word in various different versions of the bible are spelt; “Je-” (=God, Lord,) -“hovah.” (Meaning mischief, or calamity.) Sometimes it is even spelt “Je-havvah,” (=Iniquity.) Also, the quote from Isaiah, “I create peace…I the Lord do all these things,” suggests that God is responsible for everything; good and bad. This kind of fits if you think about all the things that happen in life. It’s never only good and never only bad. So in this story at least, Abiel and Midgard are the two sides of one infinite, beautiful being.
Abiel (God) is a being who’s main vice is his duplicity. While writing “To Cast an Angel spell” back in January I was actually studying Robert Louis Stevenson’s “Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.” I already knew that Abiel’s floor was duplicity, but the study of the text allowed me to develop Abiel further. I used Dr. Jekyll’s increasing paranoia and fear of Hyde to inspire Abiel’s behaviour towards Lara; his fear of Midgard causes him to become so paranoid that he believes even Lara is plotting against him. There are actually a few little nods to the novel throughout the story, for example shortly before Lara’s fall when Abiel talks about his relationship with Midgard;
“But in him I take more than a Father’s interest, and in me, he has less than a son’s indifference…”
This is how Jekyll describes the relationship between Hyde and himself in his confession to Utterson at the end of the novel. Abiel views Midgard with disdain, but later comes to fear him hugely as he realizes that he is taking over the God office.
Midgard is not intended to be ‘Hyde,’however. He is God’s darker side, but not his base nature. It has come to be a belief of mine that it is important and necessary to indulge one’s demonic/morbid side from time to time (be it raising a hellish army, or watching The Exorcist and dressing in black,) as long as you hurt no one, and that you do not become obsessed with it. Dark is beautiful too, and so Midgard is every bit as much God as Abiel is. The issue with Midgard is that he has been treated badly, rejected, banished and imprisoned. I fear that Midgard loves darkness and sees how beautiful it can be, whilst simultaneously hating it as it makes him miserable. He sees it as all he really has. He resents Abiel for his light, feels betrayed by him for his exile, and misses Lara, whom he loves too as he and Abiel were once housed in one form.
That brings me to Lara. Lara is a being who is more than an angel; she is independent in what she is, there is no name for her in that way. Between us, I’m almost certain that she is a reincarnation of a very, very beautiful and ancient being; there is a prequel waiting to explain what Lara is, I fear. Though Abiel/Midgard claims to have ‘created’ her…I think he gave her a slightly more physical form, but the soul he “sewed into her” was not a new one, and was one he seems very attached to. She is both light and dark so she owns a ‘completeness’ that even Abiel does not possess. I find myself being very attached to her as, while she has practically infinite IQ and EQ, she also possesses a quality of naivety, reflected in her simple name “Lara.”
Though she is light in some ways, she knows that she has quite a bent for darkness. She is naturally sad and reclusive. I wanted her to mirror those of us who find that they are naturally given to sadness/ anxiety. Her condition is made worse when she falls…she sees her reason for being as Abiel, so rejection from him plunges her into a suicidal depression. Lara feels “a stab of longing” when Midgard leaves her because he is Abiel too, just another part of him. With the Karis, she attempts to push her pain further down but it just comes back to bite her as Midgard is determined to bring her back to the higher plane. Her determination to climb the mountain was the beginning of a recovery as gradually she is able to get over some of the memories and reach the summit. But acceptance never comes for Lara. When she gets to the higher plane, she finds the system of government to have unravelled, a dark plane invasion on the way and Abiel isn’t looking too well. In the end she is so distraught that she tears up the crown of roses that Midgard gives her. Whatever Lara is, she is as fundamental to the creation of the new universe as dark and light (Abiel and Midgard) are. Abiel/Midgard then unravels under Lara’s supervision and everything dissolves.
Thank-you to you for having the patience to read this story. Essentially I wanted to see how it struck people, and I ‘ll be more than happy to answer questions if anyone wants to raise any. As a final note, my illustrator, and dearest friend Deeya Reddy (who recently landed her first acting job,) has done some illustrations of Midgard, Lara and Abiel after she read the story a few months ago. I always get sad as I cannot draw my characters to save my life, but Deeya has somehow managed to bring these characters out of my head and onto the paper. I have inserted them into the top of the post if you fancy a look.